My turning point in my awakening came when I decided to PROVE GOD on a daily basis.
I used to be motivated in my spiritual practice by two major beliefs:
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I believed that spiritual practice would give me an advantage and make me superior to those who didn’t have it and therefore my life would improve
I believed that spiritual practice would make me a “master manifestor” and being able to “manifest” the life I wanted and the things I wanted, the relationships I wanted, would make me happy or at least less UNhappy
We’ve all heard: It is done unto you as you believe. Your thought plus your belief are the ONLY power that you have in this world. I believed that the conditions were NOT right for my happiness. I was in a constant state of WANTING but not having what I believed would make me happy and therefore I was not happy for more than a moment.
The greatest healing in my life came when I realized that happiness really was always going to be temporary, time-bounded, temporal and fleeting, but that true Joy is unconditional and unprecedented and lasting. It was hard for me to believe. I was so convinced that my happiness and my joy were the same and that both were conditional – EVEN THOUGH I taught that Joy was a spiritual quality of the Divine and therefore HAD to be unconditional – I didn’t believe it. And so life provided me with proof.
When my mother was dying a slow, painful death from cancer, I began to have an experience of unconditional Joy. Here’s why:
For the first time in my life, my experience of Love was completely unconditional.
I moved in with my precious Mother, and Father and I became a full-time care giver. It wasn’t easy. It was often very deeply challenging on all levels – physical, mental, emotional and spiritual – but all three of us loved each other unconditionally and we were steeped in it every day. For the first time in my life, I had the experience of my Mom and I at peace in our relationship. We allowed the Love to flow between us unimpeded. ALL because I decided to DROP ALL JUDGMENTS about myself and my Mom.
The only way that this COULD be my experience was through my WILLINGNESS to leave ALL judgments and opinions behind.
Was it easy? NO, IT WAS NOT EASY AT ALL!!!!!
Was it worth doing? I’m clear: It was the most important decision I’ve ever made.
I made a decision to trade in all the wanting, craving, needing and NOT having in exchange for seeking the Kingdom, which is within. I decided to Partner UP! and commit to living a judgment-free life. I decided to discard all my opinions and seek only the Truth, and PROVE that the Truth would indeed set me free.
I decided to walk by Faith, put my Trust in LOVE and choose Love in all things. It totally KICKED MY BUTT until I discovered the value of it and then I began to rejoice that Freedom was being revealed, Harmony was becoming my experience, and Fear faded into the background.
Every day, I deepen my commitment to choosing Love. Every day I’m challenged, but it’s NOT PAINFUL anymore. I am so grateful that I DID NOT GIVE UP! And this is why I dedicate myself to sharing the benefits with anyone who is willing. This is why I write my Daily Spiritual Espresso and offer the Prayer for Today.
If you think you don’t have the ability to make the commitment to Love and live the life you are BORN TO LIVE, then come to my free call on Saturday, December 15th. I’m going to share with you HOW to develop the commitment and get clear motivation. If you know anyone who can benefit by getting MOTIVATED to do the deep work and heal their lives, please share this with them and invite them to register – it’s my gift to you!