When I started on this path of awakening back in the mid-80s, I was absolutely convinced it would take hundreds of lifetimes to burn off the negativity I was embodying at the time. One hundred percent convinced. I decided, “well, whatever it takes is whatever it takes, and that’s what I’m doing.”
Then, as I continued to deepen my practice, I realized something that opened my mind. I’m not bound in time and space. I’m an eternal being, one with the one, and I do have the ability to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit.
Why would I EVER think it’s going to take many lifetimes for me to awaken?
I threw down the gauntlet. In this lifetime, I’m choosing to awaken.
I believe it’s possible, and I’m not interested in reincarnating and burning off karma anymore. This is it. This lifetime. How am I going to do it? I’m partnering with the Higher Holy Spirit Self and I’m allowing the healing to happen.
I’m allowing it.
That decision put a whole new emphasis on my spiritual practice and a new level of motivation and commitment. It took me out of managing and coping and into proactively healing.
That’s the part I’d like you to appreciate. The decision came first, and the change in practice followed. Not the other way around. I’d spent years trying to practice my way into a commitment I hadn’t actually made.
A Course in Miracles gives us the words for that moment, and they’re worth saying as sincerely as we can:
“I must have decided wrongly, because I am not at peace.”
“I made the decision myself, but I can also decide otherwise.”
That’s the whole turn, right there. Not a feeling. A decision, and then another one.
Here’s what happened next for me. I made everything in my life, every single activity – as best I could – part of my spiritual practice and my path of awakening. Whatever’s in front of me, whether it’s work or play, it’s all there for the purpose of my awakening. Then I share the benefits with everyone.
Deciding is key. We don’t have to wait more lifetimes for this. We can do it right now, in this now.
We’re deciding now.
My End My Self-Sabotage program is six weeks of getting real with ourselves about what’s really going on – and doing it together.
Sometimes when we become overwhelmed and upset by what we think we see we find ways to drown out the intensity of our reactions. We fall into various forms of self-medication and self-sabotage. I know a lot about that. And that’s why I created this program to rise up out of that pain.
End My Self-Sabotage 6-Week Program begins Sunday, July 26th. Self-sabotage is designed to slow down our spiritual growth. But what if I told you that we can dissolve that pattern? When you recognize the pattern, you can interrupt it. And when you interrupt it with Love instead of willpower, everything changes. I used to struggle with self-medication and other forms of self-sabotage, but that’s behind me now – if you can relate – let’s do it together! Click here to learn more.
LATEST PODCAST EPISODE: Learning to Trust Yourself with Author Tama Kieves My friend Tama Kieves wrote the book on trust I wish I’d had years ago. She’s a Harvard Law honors graduate who walked away from her law career with no plan and no money, following a single voice toward the life that was actually hers. We sat down to talk about her new book, Learning to Trust Yourself, and the thing nearly every A Course in Miracles student wrestles with: how do we tell the voice of love from the voice of fear?
