Do you ever feel betrayed? Do you feel like you have wounds from betrayals that have never healed? Does it ever feel as though the wounds will NEVER heal? I understand! No matter how painful it’s been, the healing can happen right now. All it takes is a sincere willingness.
And it’s a willingness to change our minds, a willingness to place our trust in Spirit.
I was afraid to trust Spirit (like everybody else).
My learning showed me that for so long I was the one who was untrustworthy, not Spirit.
I would make vows I didn’t keep.
“I’m not going to eat any of those cookies!”
… And the next thing I know I’ve eat the rest of them!
Then the thinking goes like this:
“At least now the temptation is over with.
That feels better.
What a loser I am for eating all those cookies.
Ugh.
Why can’t I ever just keep my agreements with myself?
What’s wrong with me?
When will I ever learn?”
And on, and on, and on.
I was the one who wasn’t trustworthy.
Why wasn’t I trustworthy?
Because I was identified with ego – the judger – and the judger, the ego, is never, ever worthy of trust.
Because I betrayed myself, people showed up in my life to mirror that back to me.
Which just led me to more self-betrayal because I didn’t feel worthy of Love.
And the cycle continued and continued until I became willing to be faithFULL.
It’s a switch in the mind – this willingness – we can actually LEARN to place our faith in Love. It’s a skill we can learn.
I have learned it and I think that’s SO cool.
We can trust Love, or we can trust our judgments and opinions.
