I used to be one of those people that would say mean things to people in order to feel superior to them. Yup. I did that a lot.
I’d be in a situation, for instance, where someone was eating a bowl of ice cream, and I’d have to make a comment such as, “the thing about the combination of sugar, fat and dairy is that it …” And then I’d say whatever I could think of that would make the person feel badly about eating the ice cream.
Of course, the person would be annoyed with me.
Then I’d defend myself.
Which was a thinly veiled second attack.
Which left me feeling guilty and oh, so very wrong.
These kinds of experiences were every day.
I had no idea that I was ruining my own life.
I learned so much through all of the pain and suffering I contributed to. Now, I go the other way, but even better, I help others go the other way too. That’s the really great thing about all of my learning – I use it to bring benefit to others.
The painful past can be left behind.
Despite the fact that I ruined my relationships, I don’t feel guilty now because I’m not judging the person I was. I love that girl, that woman that I was. She was doing the best she could.
When I learned better I did better. I choose Love now, most of the time.
And that’s a blessing to all.
We may have been lost, but now we can BE the blessing.
How great is that? Pretty darn great!




