I used to be stubborn and belligerent about so many things. I needed to be right or I would feel so threatened that I’d get angry and belligerent. Sigh. 🙁
What I learned about myself was that I wanted the pain to stop, and so, to that degree, I was willing to have healing.
But I wasn’t willing to give up being right and making others wrong. So, in effect, I wasn’t willing to give up the causes of my pain.
Sometimes it’s about receptivity.
Many of us have a willingness for healing, but we’re not receptive to it.
We won’t ALLOW it.
We don’t allow our own healing which we desire so much. We block it with our unforgiveness. It’s those darn resentments and regrets that get us every time!
I used to pray to receive, and then wouldn’t actually allow myself to accept anything.
Why?
I believe it’s because of that ancient guilt and unworthiness that A Course in Miracles is designed to help us heal.
Our own Higher Holy Spirit Self will give us all the healing we need—if we allow it.
But, instead, we sometimes treasure our judgments and opinions, (like I did) and build little altars in our heart and mind to keep them right in front of us, gathering evidence to try to support the case that they are worthwhile.
I finally realized that I was blocking my answered prayer by ruminating on my hurts, and keeping the blocks to Love alive in my heart.
I was feeding the fire of my self-destruction, but I didn’t know it.
I thought that if I could hold onto my resentments, and never forget the past hurts, that I’d somehow be protected from future hurts.
I dedicated so much energy to trying to protect myself, never realizing that it was those active resentments and regrets that were hurting me now.
A Course in Miracles tells us that we have no actual problems—it’s just the incorrect perception of an imaginary problem.
We believe we are no longer unified with our Creator, and that’s why we think we have a problem. And, because we think it, we feel it; and because we feel it, we believe it; and on and on.
That’s why we believe in punishment. We punish ourselves, and we punish others.
FORGIVENESS is the way out of all of this. It’s the only way out, and it works.
Forgiveness is letting go of the meaning I made of things. It’s letting go of the belief in “better than” and “less than.”
I prayed thousands of times to forgive everything, and it continues to work miracles in my life.
When people say they’d like to forgive, what they sometimes mean is, I’d like to be free of this pain AND hold onto my judgments about what happened.
That’s not forgiveness. That’s a fantasy of forgiveness.
When I first began teaching forgiveness workshops back in 2000, I learned a lot from the people who attended.
One of the primary reasons that people were coming to my workshops, or to a counseling session with me, was that they’d forgiven, but they still didn’t feel free.
Looking deeper into it, they hadn’t actually forgiven, but they’d said they had. They hadn’t changed their mind.
If they’d truly forgiven, they would have felt free.
I heard things like, “My father molested me when I was a child. I have forgiven him so many times. I really just want to move on, but it still bothers me, and I can’t seem to get free. Why can’t I let go?”
In a very real sense, it doesn’t matter why.
Let’s just let it go, NOW!
Forgiveness is the way to letting it go.
Our Higher Holy Spirit Self knows precisely why. Let’s commune with the Higher Holy Spirit Self by the means of prayer, and simply ask Spirit to lift the burden from us.
With the technology we have, we can transcend time and space to join together.
That’s why I’m offering my Forgive & Be Free 4-part LIVE class series. Come join us!
We’ll make forgiveness as fun as it can be!
I’m offering this gift to everyone and anyone who’s willing to join me.
My LIVE, 4-part Forgiveness series starts on Thursday!
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YES: We’re going to follow up together so you’re not left doing this on your own like in the past!
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MY LATEST ACIM PODCAST EPISODE: My topic is The Best Defense. The best defense is to value the truth more than being right or getting revenge. Looking at one of the most basic teachings of A Course in Miracles to help us rise above the battlefield of fear and hopelessness.
