For so long I felt like I was bumping up against an invisible wall that wouldn’t let me make the kind of advancement in my spiritual growth that I KNEW was possible. I felt there had to be some secret code, or some special something that I was missing, but that if I looked hard enough, I could find.
It wasn’t until I decided to go ALL IN for Spirit that I began to feel things really shifting. I became diligent for practicing non-judgment and for releasing the judgments of the past and that’s what let the Love begin to flow. That’s when I began to feel like the invisible wall was disappearing.
All judgments are a block to the flow of Love. I began to recognize that I was like a person who had become used to being dehydrated and only half alive. I had so many judgments blocking the connection to Spirit, to insight and wisdom.
Once I focused on letting the judgments go, the Love began to flow and that’s the only thing I was interested in anymore.
As the healing began to accelerate, what I began to feel was what I’ll call the REAL Jennifer. I had always believed the real Jennifer was basically a bad person trying to compensate for her badness by being loving, compassionate and kind. I believed I was a fake because I had SO MANY unkind thoughts. Can you relate?
When the judgements began to go and the Love began to flow, I discovered a Real Jennifer that was so happy being loving, kind, open-hearted, patient and trusting.
The thing that helped me the most was working with counseling clients and couples. Working individually with people, I learned so much. I had a strong intention to see their Beauty and perfection that I began to be able to also see mine. I began to REALLY understand how the mind works and how the patterns begin and how they could be unwound and released forever.
It wasn’t until I was WILLING to see that everything, everything, EVERY THING worked together for my good that I could actually experience it. I had to be willing to follow the guidance I was getting in order to be led to what would truly be my answered prayer.
Letting go of the false beliefs about myself that were a false construct, like armor around my true Self, my Higher Holy Spirit Self, brought me to a place of actually loving being me. I really enjoy being myself and I feel that I’ve finally let go of the idea that I’m bad. I am so grateful to see and know more clearly than ever that everyone and everything is perfect. And that includes YOU!
Thank you for being my prayer partner today!
NEW PODCAST EPISODE! The most recent episode of my podcast’s topic is Escape From Littleness. In every moment we’re either choosing to identify with a smaller selfish self or our holiness. This choice happens all day long, and by recognizing the choice for holiness more and more often we can transform our consciousness. In this episode, I share how I’ve been able to apply the teachings of ACIM to assist me in giving up resistance to Love and to the habit of playing small. Every day can be a day of healing and transformation if we’re willing!
