You gotta wanna see to be shown and sometimes it isn’t pretty. There’s no big or small in the All In All, each moment becomes a Divine access point of unprecedented creativity and this can be terrifying. It’s scary because I have access to ultimate creative power in the universe and if I’m still choosing to judge people, still criticizing, taking offense, gossiping and harboring resentment then I’m not safe. I can’t be trusted with a creative power that affects others.
If I’m talking trash in my mind, of course I’m going to sabotage myself and play small – I can’t be trusted to play in the big leagues. (If this feels familiar, consider my Healing Self-Sabotoge Tele-Workshop November 3rd.) Using the power of positive thought, I might get things off the ground and start to fly, but, if, in my heart, I’m judging others and terrorizing them in my thoughts, then I won’t get far and might even crash and burn. It’s better to play small and stay small.
Not content to play small, I decided to study the laws of creation. I discovered that the judger always feels judged and the attacker always feels attacked. It’s unsafe the minute those voices start chattering. Through prayer and consistent spiritual practice I’ve developed the desire to live without judgment. I decided to let the Holy Spirit Self dissolve my capacity to judge others.
Now, it’s so much easier to be compassionate than it is to complain. Change didn’t happen overnight and it didn’t happen because I took a workshop or read a book. You gotta wanna. I’ve allowed myself to deeply desire to feel free and joyful. I surrendered the doing of it to the Divine a hundred times a day. I made the commitment and that commitment made me available to the healing. I wanted to prove God and see for myself. You gotta wanna see to be shown.
Affirmation:
I’m willing to be a Divine Access Point for God’s great Love. I choose Love and Love Chooses Me.
