This year I had a quiet Thanksgiving mostly by myself except for a zoom with some beloveds from our community. My birthday last week was mostly spent packing to drive home from New Jersey back to Vermont and then unpacking when I got home.

I don’t mind at all.  In the past I might have felt sad or lonely, but now I don’t take things personally.  I can see that I’m the one who plans the life I live.  Life isn’t happening to me, I’m not a victim.

In the past, I wasn’t able to see that and I ruined many a holiday with being offended and hurt and generating a lot of drama.  

I’ve even had my family eat my birthday cake without me – when I was just in the next room, they didn’t bother to call me to join them as they ate my birthday cake. Yes, it’s true.

Oh, my goodness, am I grateful I don’t have much drama from the unhealed mind operating in my experience anymore.  Old resentments and regrets of the past don’t run me anymore.

I’ve learned to get over it all.

I’ve learned not to take it personally even when it felt SO personal.

I have been redeemed by my willingness to choose Love.  

I choose Love and I discover Love has already chosen me.

Love solves all problems and if you’re trying to solve a problem without Love you’ll still have a problem.

Because I used to get so triggered, so intensely and so frequently, I came to believe there was no chance for me to have good relationships. It seemed perfectly impossible to me. I felt utterly hopeless.

Because of prayer, I learned that I wasn’t helpless. Prayer works.

I learned to do what I call PARTNERING UP.

I learned to pray, effectively and with great sincerity and prayers work.

Prayers REALLY work, but you do have to pray effectively and then be willing to accept the answer prayer.

For example, when my precious Mom was so sick and in the last years of her life, I prayed to release all blocks to Love between us so that we could be completely in the flow of Love before she left this world. I was so intent on us having a holy relationship.

Spirit gave me the opportunity to go to Maine to visit my parents many times in the last years of my Mom’s life and to spend more time with her.

On one visit, it was planned that I would go for two weeks to take my Mom to her radiation treatments. The drive alone was a three hour round trip from the island where my parents lived, and the hospital. It took more than four hours to do the whole trip, and it was winter time, so we often took longer because of snow and ice.

My mother had about a month of treatments, so I took the middle two weeks to spare my father having to do all the driving.

It was a grey, wintery bleak time, but I found stand up comedy and audio books and things that I thought my Mom and I could enjoy together and listen to.

During those two weeks I had made a commitment to myself that I wasn’t going to judge my mother for anything no matter what. I was going to completely Love and accept her. This was my big opportunity to have healing.

There were times when I’d have to go into the bedroom, shut the door, and get down on my knees to pray to release all judgments.

This is when I learned that Higher Holy Spirit Self really would take the thoughts out of my mind if I was sincerely wishing to let them go. I had so much mental healing in that time.

I prayed and prayed and prayed to give up the need to be right. I prayed to release every trigger and every unhealed resentment and regret.

I didn’t realize it then, but now I know that I punished my Mom for tolerating a lot of my anger and upset. I felt so guilty for being mean to her and saying mean things.

That guilt turned into fear and frustration that I couldn’t find a way out. If she had pushed back, and been able to help me with it more, that would have been great – but that was not my path of learning.

I felt unworthy of ALL Love because of the unkind choices I’d made.

Unworthiness is a core issue for us all.

For many of us, a deep sense of unworthiness is running our life and ruining our life.

(And that’s why I’m doing a 3 class series on it next month!)

I now see that everything I’ve learned is what I get to share in my classes. Now, I’m turning that pain into healing, because I support others with it step-by-step because I had to learn to rely on Spirit to show me. I had to really focus and pay attention and learn the way out.

I had to give up all blame in order to get out of my pain.

I had to rely up on Spirit and find my way into my loving heart.

I couldn’t do it alone.

Love is the only healer and the only way out.

Failing in my relationships felt so painful to me.

Success seemed so elusive.

I couldn’t bear the pain of failure anymore.

I had to believe that Spirit would lead me.

I had to learn to trust in God rather than my own opinions and perceptions.

I had to. I just couldn’t take it anymore.

In that two weeks of radiation treatments I focused on total acceptance and Love of my mother.

I put everything I had into releasing the judgments and seeing with God’s eyes.

I practiced being the one who went first with Love and I prayed and prayed and prayed.

At the end of the visit, when I was leaving to go back home to Los Angeles, my mother said “this was the nicest visit we ever had.”

We spent 2 weeks of driving half the day back and forth to radiation treatments in the gray, cold winter snow and mess and it was the nicest visit we ever had. Why? Because I focused on eliminating the blocks to Love and just loved without attachment.

VICTORY IS MINE!

I put Spirit in charge and Spirit DID IT.

From that point on, I knew that Spirit COULD NOT fail.

Thinking about it brings tears to my eyes, because I still have a little bit of sadness for all of the opportunities to be loving that I missed.

But I don’t look back except to continue to harvest the wisdom and move forward with more Love and more Love and more Love.

We can all be the fulcrum point of healing in our family.

We can all rely upon the Spirit for our healing.

We can all practice non-judgment.

It requires no longer giving Love and acceptance in order to get anything back. We must give without attachment.

No need for recognition or appreciation.

We give Love because it’s our divine opportunity to be our true self and be truly helpful.

It all gets so much easier to practice when we forgive ourselves for our debts and our trespasses.

I had to forgive myself for all the things I felt guilty about so I was no longer feeling horrible about myself. Self-forgiveness is the only way.

Spirit cannot fail.

That’s why it’s so important to GO FOR IT!

When any one of us has more happiness, we’re all lifted! All boats rise on this tide of Love.

RIGHT NOW there are early bird BONUSES with my Masterful Living Program 2024 This is my very best program. If you make the commitment to yourself NOW, you’ll have so much to look forward to next year – including tremendous healing and transformation and a beautiful community of like-minded souls who are willing to do this work together! Give yourself that gift right now and you’ll be amazed at how your connection with Spirit will bloom!

If you have questions you can book an Exploratory Call with a Quantum Counselor and get all your questions answered. Follow your intuition – if it’s right for you, you’ll know. You can book a FREE Exploratory call now.

TODAY you can join my Sunday’s With Spirit online inspirational service. You are most welcome to join us for music and inspiration. Click here to register now and receive the zoom info for today!

TODAY FREE WORKSHOP:  Believing ourselves unworthy of Love is one of the biggest issues people have – it gets in the way of our holiness EVERY TIME. Let’s have a healing! You can get the recording RIGHT NOW of my Worthiness Workshop it’s FREE! If you suspect that unworthiness is your issue, then you might consider receiving my gift.

SUNDAY Please enjoy another Free Forgiveness Workshop today, December 3rd – It’s a great way to start releasing the blocks and opening up the flow of Love. With Love comes Peace, Joy and a deep sense of Freedom. ACIM tells us that forgiveness offers everything we want. Please invite friends and loved ones. Click HERE for more info and register.

LATEST PODCAST EPISODE!  The new episode of my podcast’s topic is Making Room for Truth. We can be so focused on what we don’t like and the belief in our problems that there’s no room for the truth. And yet, the truth is our liberator.