For a very long time, I became anxious around packing to go somewhere.
Even for a long weekend, it was complicated. Two dogs, a cat to be boarded, the house to be cleaned while I’m gone, and a long list in my head and another in my phone.
But the complication isn’t why I was anxious. I recognized that it was false beliefs running my thoughts, and this was a healing opportunity.
Then one morning I spent half a dozen hours getting ready, and I felt no anxiety.
I felt the pressure. There was a lot to do. But I felt no worry and no fear.
That’s a shift. That’s a healing. The packing was the last thing that intensely bothered me and triggered me, and now it was finally fading.
I know it’s left over from the past, from childhood, and from other lifetimes. Analyzing where it comes from doesn’t matter. Forgiveness is always the way out of it.
Here’s what I did. Packing to leave the Vermont house two years ago, and then packing to leave the Maine house, were two moves in a year. Both times, the anxiety flared up in an extinction burst. It was intense and unpleasant. It felt traumatic.
In those moments of feeling intensely triggered, I forgave myself.
I forgave myself for having a lot of stuff, and for judging myself. I forgave myself for not giving myself enough time to pack, and for always thinking I have more time than I do, or that things won’t take as long as they take.
I didn’t analyze it. I forgave it. I stopped investing in the meaning I’d given it.
Years ago, I was packing the car with my dog Bodhi and Sattva, my cat, for a trip to our Maine house. I was frustrated, so I said it out loud, because sometimes I speak it out, and then it’s out and I’m not carrying it anymore.
I told Bodhi, “Do you not see how hard I’m working for this family to go on vacation? All I’m asking is for you to get in the car. Just do this one thing.”
She looked at me as if she didn’t understand all those words.
I wasn’t screaming, and I wasn’t deeply emotional. I was frustrated. And I noticed that I didn’t blame her for my feelings. It wasn’t her fault. She didn’t make me feel that way. She did get in the car.
The deeper healing came later, from forgiving the meaning I’d made of it all.
I see so many people do this inner forgiveness work and have extraordinary miracles. Mine showed up around packing.
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