This weekend I was making some new videos and it brought up so many memories. I’m just getting started with my last Finding Freedom class of the year and preparing for next year’s Masterful Living Course. In making these videos and telling stories of how I learned certain things it brings up a lot of my history.
I don’t usually look back at my history. I seem to have “forgotten” that I used to look back all the time. I used to spend so much time and energy going over and over things that had happened. I don’t do this anymore. I realize that I got my life back!
I used to go over and over the past looking for:
1. My mistakes – what did I do wrong?
2. Others’ mistakes – what did they do wrong?
3. Who is to blame for my suffering?
4. How did I cause other people’s suffering?
5. Why didn’t I see it coming?
6. How come I saw it coming and didn’t pay attention?
7. How can I prevent this from happening again?
8. How will I ever recoup and get over it?
And that’s just a FEW of the thoughts that were cycling over and over in my mind. There wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t have to cope or manage with some compulsive negative thinking. It was such a burden to me.
I don’t have ANY of that feeling anymore. NONE.
Instead, I feel motivated and inspired to follow the guidance about how I can share in ways that are truly helpful.
I’m so grateful I am finding a better way and that we’re on this path together. Thank you for being my precious prayer partner!!
