What a weekend!  I’m so glad it’s over.  

Last Wednesday I had gum surgery and I’ve been recovering nicely, but it definitely took its toll on me especially because I’m not used to taking things like Advil and antibiotics.  Then Friday night I ate something that I think had gone bad, but tasted delicious.  It had me up much of the night, but at least I didn’t vomit and endanger the stitches in my mouth.  

I was wiped out the next day, so I spent Saturday mostly resting except for when I was walking my dog, Bodhi, and when I went to look at a used kayak for sale that I thought my family could use for our house in Maine.  Fortunately, they agreed to deliver the kayak to me since they had a truck.  I knew I couldn’t deal with it until I’d recovered more as I was supposed to keep my heart rate low on account of the stitches and lifting the kayak onto the top of my car was more than I was game for.

The folks I bought it from were kind enough to deliver the kayak to me later that day and said that my cat Sattva was out there to greet them as they dropped it off. Then, Sattva didn’t come home last night.  He’s done that before, but only a couple of times and lately he’s been easy to get in at night.  

I really don’t want him out at night, but I know he’s got places he can safely hide in the garage next to the house and under my neighbor’s garage.  Still, with bobcats and coyotes prowling, I’d rather have him home next to me at night.

He didn’t show Sunday morning.  Bodhi and I spent hours looking for him in the rain.  At one point I had a close encounter with a bee that got ensnared in my hair and stung me on the head!  That was horrible!  I couldn’t get it out of my hair and then it stung me and I still couldn’t get rid of it!  Aargh!  I definitely lost my cool on that one.

I came home and put an icepack on my head till it felt better and then went back out on the hunt for Sattva with Bodhi.  Bodhi ran off on me a couple of times, chasing rabbits and I spent at least a half an hour looking for her.  Which I didn’t appreciate.  

I cancelled dinner with friends to stay home in case Sattva appeared.  I knew he’d be hungry, if not worse for wear, and I wished to be there when he arrived.

I have company staying with me for the holiday weekend and after they came back from dinner we were in the den talking when suddenly I knew exactly where Sattva was.  I went outside and looked under the kayak.  There he was.  As soon as I lifted it up, he jumped out.  He was famished as he was just about to miss his 4th meal.  

I was so relieved, I can’t tell you.  

I’d spent the day afraid that while searching for him I’d come across some piece of him, evidence that he was a meal for a predator.  I held in my mind, if he was dead, I hope he died easily and quickly.  

I had this feeling he was alive, yet I kept pushing pictures of his dead body out of my mind.  I didn’t feel guilty.  He would have been miserable and hated me if I’d kept him locked up inside with me.  I knew he was living his best life.  

I was very attentive to my thoughts all day.  

I really wanted him to come home all day.  

I just wanted him to come home.

I can happily confess I had lots of ego thoughts – what if he doesn’t come home tomorrow or the next day?  Will I get another cat?  Will I let that cat be an outdoor cat?

I noticed I wasn’t very afraid or very worried – definitely concerned, definitely dealing with ego thoughts – I wasn’t crying or desperate, begging or pleading.  I was asking the angels for any and all assistance to bring him home.  

Thank God for my intuition that told me right where he was.  

I had the feeling several times during the day that he was very close by, but I didn’t know where he could be.  I’d gotten the guidance to walk around the yard, which I did a couple of times and even walked past the kayak.  

When I got stung by the bee, and I couldn’t get it out of my hair, I was definitely upset, “are you kidding me?”  I’m spending hours in the rain looking for my cat and now I get stung by a bee?  WTF???  

And, I went to “I am not a victim of the world.”

I am not a victim of the world.  I’m not. I am the salvation of the world.  How could I be its victim?

Everything works together for good, even this.  Even the bee sting.  Even Bodhi making me chase her for half an hour and the tracker on her collar completely failing, even Sattva gone missing in the rain for 24 hours, all if it is working together for my good and I will not believe otherwise.  

That’s where I went in my mind.

I thought about all the parents who had sick children and whose children didn’t survive and I blessed them.

And I thought about the petsitter, and telling her that Sattva was no longer with us.  I thought about cancelling my trip next weekend because I didn’t wish to leave Bodhi by herself with the petsitter so soon after Sattva had disappeared.

I was thinking about the things I didn’t want to think about and didn’t want to do.  Planning for a future I didn’t want and then I’d remember – be grateful.  You can feel him.  He’s not dead.  He’ll come home.  Just be patient.  Hold the high watch.  

And I’d envision myself holding him and cuddling him.  Which is what I’ve actually been doing before I wrote this.

I am not a victim of the world.

Even if Sattva was gone for this lifetime, I still wouldn’t be a victim.  Even if 100 bees stung me I still wouldn’t be a victim.  

Life is always teaching us to listen to Spirit and to be grateful.

It was a crappy weekend – that’s my judgment – and still I’m grateful.

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