I used to feel trapped inside the mental and emotional patterns that were running me. I didn’t have a sense of HOW to break out or if I could stick with it if I found the way. It was discouraging.
Like a lot of people I had nightmares that were about what a bad person I was, always failing at being able to be loving. I’d escape into sleep at night, but it was no respite. I’d wake up in the morning and think “oh, no, this place again.”
For so many years I did whatever I could to distract myself from my feelings and then I found out that it wasn’t possible to experience Joy while running from my feelings. I realized I couldn’t drown out my feelings and let the Joy through.
The Joy got drowned along with everything else.
I had to learn to feel my feelings in order to navigate myself out of the difficult place I was in. It wasn’t easy for me, but I did get there.
I’ve made my self-care a focus of my life. Some might say it was a waste of time, but I know that my life is for transcending the mis-takes of the past, and for remembering who I truly am. Nothing is more valuable or rewarding than that.
Surprisingly, I kept going even when it felt like I was walking in a dense fog and couldn’t see a foot in front of me. I think I was compelled and I also feel I was energetically drawn by my own holiness.
We all have holiness.
Our holiness blesses the world.
Let’s allow our holiness to lead us all the way to the new heaven and the new earth!
We’re going there together.
Our success is assured.
Spirit cannot fail, nor can we!
Stinking’ thinking’ and this kind of self-sabotage is why I created my End My Self-Sabotage Challenge that starts July 20th – the first week is free. I cannot tell you what a great gift it was to give myself – to liberate from that pattern of darkness that ran so much of my life and my choices was worth everything I put into it. I wish I had any clue a decade sooner that I could really break free. I would have gone for it if I’d known. Check out this breakthrough program and see how you can benefit!
