You know what’s wonderful?  To spend all day with a group of people that I’m not normally used to being around, in places I’ve never been before, doing things I’ve not really done before, and eating food I haven’t eaten before, and feeling completely harmonious the entire time.

I love it!

Yesterday on the Camino Adventure there were more of us walking around the same pace and walking in groups and it was lovely to be together.

After dinner enjoying the sunset.

I remember back a decade ago and Spirt sent me on my first long trip for the Ministry – teaching in Germany, UK and Ireland and I was to be gone for three weeks.  Staying in a mix of people’s homes and hotels felt like it would be challenging to me. I can be so set in my ways.

I’ve talked before about how I was very much a control freak when I was younger and that I had to work very diligently for many years to shift that.  It was SUPER DUPER challenging until I discovered the personal practice of forgiveness that I now teach.  I was very controlling and manipulative and it all came from a deep sense of insecurity.  

I needed everything to be “my way or the highway.”  That intense need to control came from a deep insecurity.  The insecurity came from being so judgmental, but I didn’t know it.  My constant judging came from my own belief that I was bad, and wrong and unlovable.  The more I acted out that belief, the more insecure I felt and the more controlling I was.  It was intensely painful for me and the people who loved me.

What I discovered on that three week trip to Europe was that I had changed so much – through my spiritual practice, that I could enjoy life much more and didn’t need to control it.  

I found that I loved being able to travel and meet new people, be in their homes, and not be in control of everything – I could let go, and let God lead me.  Phew!  

I loved it because I wasn’t getting in the way of the Love by complaining all the time that things were not as I wished them to be.  Although there were many things I would have liked to change, they really didn’t matter.  The one thing I really wished was different was the lack of green vegetables in restaurants.  (I remember a conversation with a waiter about whether they had any vegetables for side dishes and he said, “but your meal comes with potatoes.”  I was thinking about broccoli or something green.)

I used to get so upset when things were not as I expected or wanted them to be.  It was only because I felt threatened and off-balance ALL THE TIME.  I didn’t realize that the issue was inside my mind.  I blamed it on the world.  I was a victim of the world.  I’m profoundly grateful I don’t have to live that way anymore – where anything could and would, set me off.

Now, I can be the loving presence I always wished I could be.

I’ve got several things coming up you may find fun and helpful:

• Finding Freedom From Fear Spiritual Bootcamp based on ACIM principles starts October 16
• Forgiveness Retreat in the NY Catskills November 9 to 12
• Spiritual Counseling Training Intensive in the NY Catskills November 13 to 19
  • If you’re interested in the training, consider coming to the Forgiveness Retreat too to have a MAJOR shift!

Let’s make a quantum leap together.  

If you’d like my help developing a spiritual practice of Self-care that clears out the old patterns of past beliefs in order to move out of the unconscious guilt and punishing yourself, blaming others, living like a victim or a martyr, feeling guilty and ashamed, and into feeling more connected with Spirit, please check out my Finding Freedom From Fear Spiritual Bootcamp class – it’s designed to be a rocket booster for your spiritual journey.

If you feel you’ve been holding yourself back and letting fear decide, this might be your answered prayer! If it’s right for you, you’ll know. Trust your intuition!

Not sure if one of my programs is right for you? You’re invited to schedule a free Exploratory Call with one of our certified spiritual counselors to get your questions answered and see if this program can bring you the results YOU would like!

NEW PODCAST EPISODE! The most recent episode of my podcast’s topic is Peace Instead of Pain. Peace is a choice that we make. Pain is a choice we make whether we can see it or know it or not. We can choose heaven now.