Do you have a calling for a spiritual career or a deeper path of study?

I meet so many spiritual students who are like me. (Like attracts like!)

I have a powerful passion for service, to be truly helpful and be a beneficial presence on this planet.  I LOVE people.  I LOVE humanity.

And I deeply LOVE helping people to find their calling, unlock their gifts, walk the talk and fully live the Love.

For NINE YEARS I studied to be a Science of Mind Practitioner and then a Minister in the Agape community in Los Angeles.

It was a lot of work, and yet I still didn’t feel worthy of what I aspired to! Can you imagine?

I used to wonder how I’d ever be able to make a living following my calling. I had so much doubt about my abilities to figure it all out and that was a great burden to me. I didn’t have 1 clue how to really, truly lay that burden down and just get ON with what I had such a passion for – spiritual healing.

The road to just being able to pay my bills and make ends meet felt very rough and challenging.

Sometimes I had to choose between filling my gas tank and paying my phone bill. I always made it through financially, but it felt humiliating to be unable to support myself better. I was judging myself harshly, and I didn’t want anyone to know because I felt so ashamed. Now, I can see the perfection in it. The humiliation brought me a real and lasting humility for which I’m grateful. It helped me drop the false arrogance I used to have.

I wondered how could I ever be a successful spiritual counselor, teacher, and minister when I was struggling financially.

AND I was also struggling just to be truly loving. I had such a desire to live my passion, and it worried me that I might not have what it takes. I was concerned that I was going to have to keep settling and making choices to do things I really didn’t want to do, just to survive.

Plus, I could talk the talk, but in trying to walk the walk I fell down many times a day – sometimes I fell HARD.

I was ashamed. I felt like a fake and a fraud a lot of the time.

The dark shame lived in the pit of my stomach, along with fear, worry, and doubt – all born from my relentless self-judgment. I felt like a fraud, even though I wasn’t one. I’d try to numb these feelings with alcohol, food, TV, cigarettes, too much exercise.

What I couldn’t see then was that this shame was actually my biggest obstacle. Not my lack of training, not my financial struggles – the shame itself. It kept me from awakening to the simple truth that there’s nothing wrong with me. I was comfortable in my discomfort, choosing familiar pain over unfamiliar freedom.

And let’s face it – it’s really hard to “sell” yourself, when you feel like a fraud. Lordy!

Maybe you’ve been a spiritual student for a while, maybe you’re a teacher, minister, therapist, healer, counselor, social worker or coach.

I can see now that the great mistake I was making was I was “up in my head” about how to actually make a living in a spiritual profession. I had a desire to be a teacher, minister and a counselor, but I didn’t feel worthy. And that just made it so much harder.

I was very aware of how much I didn’t know. I felt like I was pushing a boulder up a hill just to get started.

That didn’t stop me from giving A LOT of advice – LOL!

To a certain degree, I was a spiritual know-it-all, giving advice to everyone whether they asked for it or not, but not really stepping out into living my dream because I felt like a fraud.

It confused me at the time, but I can see now that I was pushing people away with my advice. And of course, I felt a deepening sense of shame that I could give advice I wasn’t willing to apply myself.

For many years I was focused on collecting more information – I read books and took classes and seminars to learn more about Spirit. Collecting information felt like it made me a better person – and I needed that to boost my Self-esteem – but of course, it didn’t work because information isn’t healing or uplifting – only Love is.

I thought if I just read one more book, took one more class, got one more certification, THEN I’d be worthy. But information isn’t healing. It’s just another way to avoid doing the inner work.

I was looking for the key. I was hoping someone would give me a clue. The more I looked for the key, the further away it seemed to feel.

I wanted to crack the code so that I could go from studying about Spirit to finally being able to be a truly beneficial presence and live my calling.

Maybe you’ve taken a lot of classes, trainings and seminars, but still feel like you’re missing some essential piece that will bring your breakthrough.

I don’t mind telling you that I kept thinking that I had to learn more in order to be able to live my calling, but it wasn’t true in the intellectual sense. I didn’t need more information. I needed someone to help me understand how to commit to doing the practical application. I needed help learning to really LIVE what I thought I knew.

You know what?

My spiritual practice is the thing that brought my breakthrough and transformed this ministry from minuscule to thriving and expanding.

Trust me, there was no amount of information that I could have learned that would have brought me to the place of knowing, clarity, Peace, and Wholeness that I feel ever-increasing in my life.

The breakthrough came when I finally understood: my struggles weren’t disqualifying me from serving – they were preparing me. Every financial humiliation, every moment of shame, every pattern I couldn’t seem to break was teaching me compassion for others in the same boat.

There’s no piece of marketing strategy or esoteric spiritual information that could have brought me to where I am now. I now know that spiritual practice is the only thing that works.

Spiritual practice made it possible for me to have something truly worth sharing.

I began to experience miracles!

Do you feel that you have a calling to a spiritual profession?

Have you already studied for years as a minister, therapist, teacher, healer or coach and still feel that you’re not REALLY qualified to help others? I used to have so much fear that I’d never be able to live my calling and that I’d forever be floundering in a fog of confusion. Success felt SO elusive to me.

Are you just not able to make a real living doing what you Love – and does that frighten you like it frightened me? Do you feel that there’s some kind of block you can’t seem to get through? Do you feel like you just can’t figure out how to make your passion your “real” job? Do you secretly judge your clients?

I used to judge everyone, even as I was wishing to be of service to them. How crazy is that? I have talked with so many other ministers, counselors and therapists that feel like I used to feel. They’re judging their clients, complaining about their students, criticizing the very people they are supposed to be supporting – and they feel guilty and ashamed for it – but they keep doing it.

They’re in a loop of feeling bad about themselves and then projecting it onto the people in their lives. I was in that place for a long, LONG time and it was very painful for me.

Do you have a deep yearning to be of service and to have a thriving spiritual career?

If you’re truly willing to do the healing and clearing work, I absolutely KNOW that you can be a success. I’ve seen it with the folks in my classes and it’s beautiful to witness!

I used to feel so confused and blocked – and I sure don’t feel like that anymore.

What I absolutely know is that the time is NOW for the light workers of the world to activate and to share their gifts and talents and be beneficial presence in this world.

It’s time for those of us who have been resistant and reluctant to follow our hearts and answer our calling!

You can do the work that you LOVE. Spirit will support you to find the path of your success. Spirit does not fail and neither will you. Stay tuned and I’ll share with you what worked for me.

What I know is that you WILL be guided and supported! Your willingness is ALL that’s required!

If you’re feeling that pull – that knowing that your current pain might actually be preparing you for your greatest service – trust it. On October 31st, we begin the Quantum Counseling Training Intensive, where we transform wounded healers into confident practitioners. Not by adding more information, but by healing what’s really in the way.

This blog is Part 1 of a 3 part series. Tomorrow in Part 2, I’ll share the promise I made to God that changed everything – and why the very people I thought I’d never want to help became my greatest teachers.

If you’re tired of playing small, and you’re interested in having a breakthrough in living your calling, helping more people and opening up the flow of prosperity, stay tuned to my Daily Shot of Spiritual Espresso tomorrow!

TODAY:  Join me at Sundays with Spirit – I’ll share inspiration and Faith Rumer will bring her beautiful music to inspire us all.  It’s free of course, but you do have to register if you haven’t already.  Click here to register and get the zoom details.

If you’ve been collecting certifications but still feel unqualified… if you give great advice but struggle to apply it yourself… if you know you’re meant to serve but feel blocked – the Quantum Counseling Training Intensive might be exactly what you’ve been looking for. We begin October 31st. This isn’t about learning more techniques. It’s about healing what’s really in the way. Our certified Spiritual Counselors are available for FREE Exploratory Calls to help you determine if my Quantum Counseling Training Intensive aligns with your spiritual path. Your heart knows the answer.

NEW ACIM PODCAST EPISODE:  In this episode, Why Punishment Never Works (And What Does) I shared one of the most transformative teachings from A Course in Miracles that changed my life: there is no sin, only mistakes that need correction, not punishment. Working with Chapter 19’s section on “The Unreality of Sin,” I explain how I used to be deeply attracted to punishment – thinking people (including myself) should be punished for their “sins” – until I discovered that punishment is actually guilt’s way of keeping sin real and protecting it. I share how the ego brings sin to fear demanding punishment, when actually every mistake is just a call for love, and how I learned to replace the word “sin” with “tactical error” to remind myself that correction and compassion heal while punishment only perpetuates suffering. This shift freed me from my own patterns of self-punishment including alcohol abuse, because when I stopped seeing others as sinners deserving punishment, my own unconscious guilt dissolved.