It Was A Painful Mind Game

January 4, 2026

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For years, forgiveness felt like an impossible mountain to climb. I would say “I forgive” over and over, but the hurt remained. I would work on releasing resentments, but they’d return like stubborn weeds – mostly because I believed I was right, and I wasn’t willing to give up my opinion about that.

I wasn’t being dragged back into the past. I see that clearly now.

I was holding myself there.

My attachment to my interpretation – my certainty that I knew what it all meant – was the very thing that kept recreating the pain. At the time, I didn’t understand this. I thought forgiveness meant effort. I thought it meant working harder, trying longer, being more spiritual.

What I didn’t realize was that I was trying to forgive with the same mind that had made forgiveness necessary in the first place.

It was a painful mind game I was playing with myself.
And I never won.

The problem wasn’t my sincerity.
It wasn’t my willingness.
And it certainly wasn’t that I didn’t care enough.
The problem was that I believed forgiveness required me to figure something out.

I thought I needed to understand why it happened.
I thought I needed to make peace with the story.
I thought I needed to change my feelings before I could be free.

But forgiveness is not about fixing the past.
It’s about releasing the meaning we made of it.

When something painful happens, the event itself passes. What lingers is the interpretation we carry forward – the conclusions we draw about ourselves, about others, about life.

“This means I’m not good enough.”
“This proves I can’t trust.”
“This shows love isn’t safe.”

These interpretations are not facts.

They are decisions.

As A Course in Miracles teaches, “Forgiveness recognizes what you thought your brother did to you has not occurred.”

When I first encountered that line, I resisted it. It felt confronting – even threatening. But over time, I understood what it was really saying. It wasn’t denying the experience. It was undoing the meaning I had assigned to it.

That was the turning point for me.

Forgiveness became possible when I stopped trying to reinterpret the past on my own and instead became willing to hand my interpretations over. I didn’t need to analyze my wounds, justify my pain, or defend my story.

I simply needed to be willing to see differently.

I learned to say, “Holy Spirit, I am willing to release my interpretation. Please show me another way.”

And then something extraordinary happened.
The emotional charge softened.

The story loosened its grip.
Peace returned – not through effort, but through willingness.

This is what I call spiritual auto-correction.

Forgiveness stopped being work and became relief.
As A Course in Miracles reminds us, “Forgiveness offers everything want.”

And it’s true.

Forgiveness didn’t take anything from me.

It gave me my life back.

This understanding is the foundation of everything I teach in Masterful Living – learning how to consistently release the interpretations that block our awareness of Love so we can live with clarity, peace, and genuine freedom.

And today, you have an opportunity to experience this for yourself.

Later this morning, at 11:00 am Eastern, I’m offering a FREE live Forgiveness Workshop – the first one of the year, and a powerful moment to begin this new cycle without carrying old blame and shame forward.

If you recognize this mind game…

If you’re tired of being right at the expense of peace…

And if you’re willing to let forgiveness be easy…

You are welcome to join me.  I hope you will. 
We’re entitled to miracles, but we do have to choose them.

The healing is always available.
The correction is always at hand.

And freedom begins the moment we stop defending our interpretations.

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